I didn't sleep the greatest because I was worried about my car again. Thank goodness it was still there right where I left it. I check my phone as usual because sometimes I get texts or missed calls during my sleeping hours. I had one from John and it he said that he had just got fired from his job because of yesterday. My heart sunk deep into my chest. I felt really bad for him. So, now I'm doing whatever it takes for him to get another job and to help out the best I could. I gave him a bag of canned goods that I knew that I wouldn't eat unless I was about to make the choice of eating my right arm or eat the mixed veggies. It didn't have to much just because I don't have enough as it is. I can't give him money because I need it just as bad if not more then he does. Meredith is still working full time so rent will still be paid. Not to sound selfish but I was kinda worried about my car and child support. I don't know I'm going to try and help him without getting myself in to deep.

Work sucked again. I only made $50 bucks. I even got stiffed. Why can't people just leave a dollar or something. ANYTHING! If anything I had to pay the bartender and the hostess for that table. I paid for that table. Thank God there bill was only $28. Anything more then that I would have been REALLY pissy.

Love life... Still sucks. I wish I could just find that guy that could give me more then just sex and money. I could do without it and have been for a while so whats up with that? Its just going to be another lonely holiday for me. UGH..

Back to homework that I didn't finish. I have to have passing grades this time around. I don't want to owe this school anymore money then I have too. I was just thinking... It sure would be nice to just have a huge check come in a Christmas card for me this year.