Hello to all my blog readers. Sorry it has taken so long to write. I don't know really who all reads this but its a good way for get things off my chest and vent a little.

First and for most I need to wish everyone a Merry Christmas. I really didn't get anything and for once I'm ok with that. About my day today then I'll bring up whats been going on the last month to get everyone up to speed. I really didn't have ALL that much money to spend on the boys since John lost his job A MONTH AGO! But I think with $60 I did pretty darn good. The boys made out with from Brandy the sitter, my parents and myself. They also got gifts from Johns parents and John so they had MORE then enough. So, I wake up about 8:30 this morning cause I was having a dream about Greg. I hate having dreams about him and I don't know why I did but I did. So, I texted him. I finally fell back to sleep cause I had been only living off 3 or 4 hours of sleep for a week and I was dead tired. Only to be waken up a few hours later by Hunter who was all excited that Santa came. I made Hunter wait till Mason was up which only then a few seconds later. Me still being tired I texted everyone in my contacts on my phone and finally got Mason out of bed. We opened gifts and I started to clean up all the wrapping paper. My parents came over about 1ish with gifts, ham and a cheese log. YUMMY! Just before then Rob texted me asking what I was doing later that night cause he wanted to come over for Christmas dinner at his parents house. I of course had to go. I'll explain Rob in minute. I get to Robs and meet his mom and step dad and his little brother. Talan who is Robs son was there and was HUGE! I ate and the boys played. The boys and I stayed for about 4 hours and I loved every second of it. It was truly the high light of my day. So that was my day.

So, whats been going on with me for the last month? Well, I'm still hard core looking for a job with still no luck. My welfare FINALLY got started and I now am able to get food, we had a HUGE snow storm last week and some moron cut me off and I slid into a snowbank completely screwing up my front end. I have been depressed, lonely and just had the worst luck in the world. Rob a friend of Joe who lives above me works at GM and I have liked him for a while. He has a 2 year old son named Talan who is very much apart of his life. He has a job, a car, doesn't do drugs, drinks sometimes and has his life together. Granted he still lives at home but thats ok with me. He fixed my front end for free and plans on fixing the rest of my car. YAY! I've also started going to church now. I just feel better when I go. I think about life more and think more clearly. Its nice. Rob and I have spent a lot of time together and I really like it. First he fixes my car, then he has me over for Christmas dinner with his parents which I mean come on I'm meeting his parents thats gotta mean something, right? We plan on going to church this Sunday which I'm really excited about and hes already asking me what I plan on doing for New Years Eve! This is great! I don't know whats going to happen but whatever it is I'm really loving it. Finally life for me is turning around for the best. I'm starting to be really happy and be myself again.

Looking forward to the new year...